Chapter 15
Goodness me!! How time flies…..
…and here we are now, Fred the dowsing dog and myself, back on another jaunt in the camper, in Germany. Up until now, this afternoon, it’s all been rather pleasant. Beautiful blue skies. Unseasonably warm, with the astonishingly beautiful landscape of western Germany laid out before us like a magnificent parkland.
I’m here on a secret mission.. one that not many folk know of. To heal the scars of years of propaganda that we British underwent after the second great war. We had a massive attack, as a nation, of self righteousness about the war, and the message was… always.. that we won, all German people were to blame and woe to anyone that disagreed…. O and the Yanks turned up. Well that’s how it was presented to me in all the trash mags I devoured as a kid, and in all the probably hundreds of war films that were a constant diet in the cinema and later on TV.
Of course it wasn’t all rubbish. Many, many atrocities were carried out by some of those peoples, but now, with the internet we’re starting to hear the other side of the story…and a lot of those folks absolutely abhorred Hitler and his minions….however, by and large they still went to war…so whether they were hoodwinked or forced or were genuine Nazis…all do have a share in the blame, and of course the guilt.
However, for me, I know of one Great Uncle who died in the first war and a grandfather who was seriously injured in it as well…and my father, in the second, nearly died during training and remained profoundly deaf for the rest of his life….another major casualty.
So it has mattered.
Thus, I am in Germany, not for the first time, checking the place out. Seeking some form of resolution/healing… for me and perhaps my ancestors. …mostly about who are these people?
Unfortunately my experience at the Mercedes truck centre at the end of my last trip in Germany didn’t go well and they are just a bunch of very well dressed thieves in my opinion…. Charging a fortune for parts and labour and not doing a very good job. However, that’s the case for all Mercedes garages wherever you go in whatever country, in my experience…so.
Well, I got back to my ship, safe and sound. Very tired from driving, to find the door had been busted in….but rather oddly, nothing taken. It had been open quite a while….but very generously, the local cat had quite recently dropped bits of a mouse on the door mat for me as a welcome home gift.
For the next few weeks I got myself back in the mode of click, click, clicking on Google Earth and started at a location near Verdun, in Northern France. This was as a result of another message from Ephraim, and I had been told that my journey was not quite finished and that I should seek out a place that I should need do some work on. Instantly I knew where, as in earlier days I had recognised that work needed doing there, and but for the clutch issue with the van, might well have visited this trip. The precise location was the Ossiary of Duamont where numberless men were killed and buried during the early days of the first world war, (Those Germans again!) and where there is built one of the most peculiar examples of architecture that I have ever seen as a memorial to them and also to contain their many bones. There is of course a massive cemetery just outside.
It is a building, looking just as one might imagine a space ship does when it is parked or awaiting take off.
Energetically however, it was a bit of a minefield… Ephraim’s description was of it being an energetic cess pit….a place of deep, deep injury that occurred many, many years ago, way before the first world war. A place that needed clearing and cleaning and healing…just the job for me and the Lumis folk.
Surveying the place and the lines and the extended lines showed up all sorts of murky darkness in another set of locations, all across Europe, but also, tellingly, this was a hub of energy, right in the place of the heart of Europe and that all the radiating lines from this location crossed through or very close to many of the cities of Europe and consequently, it’s darkness would inevitably have connections and consequences right throughout Europe on all levels…in politics, business, finance etc. etc. It was an astonishing discovery and realisation and kept us busy for many weeks, clearing and working with Light and intention and Love.
Importantly, at this time, we were also given the new symbol to work with, which I rather thought denoted the importance of these sites that we suddenly started to work with…and alongside this in the dowsing in various sites, both in Europe and elsewhere, I was starting to find extremely dark energies…always accompanied with the Space beings that once had seemed so dark, but now were ten a penny….but then I found one in London, in the Tower of London that really was dark and I mean really dark…so much so that I do not name it here. (Although you may recall my meeting him twice before.)
The symbol however, seemed to do the trick…and we never had any recurrence of the cold or any sense that we were observed or anything like that.
I must admit, the thought of having to work alone on these sites did feel a little overwhelming, but as a group the work got done…with a very great deal of attention on safety.
The salient meaning of the symbol that was passed on from Ephraim was of ‘God upon the earth’…and this, combined with the symbol of the cross that turned up some while ago gives me the feeling that not only do we have a full set, but that we do have some extraordinary energies ‘on side.’
With the various sites we discovered, there seemed to be no coherence to their layout. Most were in cities, some lay in farmland….but all moved on fairly smartly once we set to work.
It was actually very exciting and felt like we were really starting to earn our spurs. This was work really worth doing.
Aside from this and entirely in concert with this work, during this period and up until very recently, the planet has been under all sorts of different influences and pressures. I believe the photonic light continues to pour through the galaxy, right through us and in to and probably through the earth… The sun is undergoing some mega shifts and is ejecting masses of magma and heavens knows what else. There are major magnetic events going on for our planet as well and we have had a series of very powerful full moons, the last arising only a few days ago…along with all sorts of astounding astrological stuff happening too. It’s been intense!!
Almost full time during this period my hearing has been affected in a couple of ways. For maybe three years now I’ve had the far distant diesel engine sound that is apparently audible when one’s frequency is rising…but with these massive solar ejections a week ago, it was like my hearing outside my head was being shut off and mainly I could hear only the sounds of squeaks and burps inside my head… It was actually most unpleasant.
…and this corresponded to a fallow period in the work, when I just didn’t feel connected as I normally do…and so I decided to kind of take a bit of a rest. I did so and stopped doing so much clickety click stuff, and started to concentrate more and more on the chakra meditations that we had been doing during the zooms. We started out very tentatively, according to instruction from Ephraim, and gradually expanded that…opening up all the chakras of the body system, and then inviting assistance in the opening of all the chakras above and below us…and assistance in arising with heart consciousness and soul consciousness in to the ‘Liminal Space’. This has been astonishingly successful. I think everyone in the zooms will agree.
Further to this, I started a Sunday evening zoom so that we can really set to and stay longer in that space.
Just before this last Sunday I did my own chakra meditation however and was shown a few things that we could try during the zoom….
I called it, “exercising the soul and heart consciousness muscles” and what we did was get to the space as normal, then descend back to our human forms, still all lit up with our chakras, then return again to the Liminal Space and back again to the human form. Then, having established our ability to move easily from one to another, I invited everyone to rest in the middle, holding firmly to both… and breathing from both…being fully connected to both.
The effect, by all accounts was amazing, and to me it feels like the discovery of the place we truly belong.
We only have done this once and maybe this should be repeated and fully established for all of the folk, but personally I feel this is really the place we will be able to work from. I feel like this is the place we can travel from, at will, to any location that needs our input. It’s immensely exciting… and rather awe inspiring.
I realised how I was leading the group zooms had turned in to a kind of shamanic journeying, though not underground as most journeying is done, but up in to the beyond. Up in to the beyond? So much of what I say during these shamanic excursions is very loose in description. Are there words to describe all these situations we come across? The Light? The Liminal Space? The Middle Ground? What do these words and phrases really mean? I’m just hoping we can arrive at some approximation.
From developing the human form chakras we moved up to the Liminal space and then what I called the middle ground. Burke from New Zealand quickly mentioned that this middle ground was a very specific state… That of the Mandorla which relates to a state understood by, presumably the more enlightened Christians… and ascribed to the state of the Christ being…. but also having been noted and understood by Buddha.. and doubtless others. This as you may imagine was profoundly moving for me, and was profoundly moving for most members who attended the zooms. It was like making our own discovery of a great hidden truth, and finding the confirmation that yet again we were being drawn along the perfect journey that fitted so well with our understanding, yet without the dogma that inevitably would have been necessary to wade through if we had approached this from any religious context. And it was so simple!!!
As the leader of this group, and responsible for what we do together, how did I come to these ideas?
Well, just listening drew us there. Either from the messages of Ephraim or in meditation or picked up from two other sources. Pam Gregory or Heather Ensworth… and others.
…and then Pam interviewed Nancy Rebecca and she was talking about her experience of the Blue beings from the Sirius star system. Instantly I knew we were going to be connecting and working with them.
In short, Nancy said that these beings had already started a process of beaming blue light down to the earth, centred on a location in China, one in Mexico and very soon, in the month of November 2023, three separate bursts on three separate days, centred on the ancient pyramids of the Arizona Messas….pyramids unknown until now as they are apparently highly eroded.
I immediately started the group in this new direction and having arrived at the Middle Ground, we invited connection and there they were!!…..in my vision anyway, and this was later confirmed by others on the zoom. Blue, sharp azure blue light in abundance and I definitely had a vision of blue beings surrounding us, joining with us and a particular vision of some blue beings standing around what appeared to be a table, where I joined them…though they were very tall and I realised I was rather insignificant in respect of what they were planning and overseeing. After a couple of sessions like this I introduced the invitation for us to look after and heal and love our inner wounded child…and a little later to turn to our ancestors and invite healing for them too…and then to find our completion by turning to The Light.
This was all a very beautiful journey and it was with some surprise that all of a sudden, after the last download of blue light, it all came to an end. I listened to Nancy on her YouTube channel and she said that the blue beings said it was time now to rest. The full effects of their work were some time away…and it was time to reflect upon what had been done and to start to choose our way forward. For low frequency or high frequency……and this was immediately reflected in our zoom work also. I did do a couple more, but the high intensity had somehow diminished and it was time for us to take a break. One last vision was gifted to me however and I saw, very briefly, the image of a very ancient man, sitting upon a throne of wood, with antlers and greenery of some kind set upon it. It was a very brief image, and my thought about this was that it was an image of an ancient earth being, giving a nod of appreciation and affirmation for what we have been doing.
This period has also become very difficult for me…as my disability brought about primarily by the Guillaine Barre/ burning nerves thing just got much worse.
I try not to mention it too much as it’s really a trial to listen to someone that is constantly ill and actually if one is ill and constantly referring to it it reinforces the fact of the illness and absolutely doesn’t help in anyway. It makes one feel as though one is under the cosh and struggling rather than heroically getting by despite the hardship. It diminishes one’s power to speak of one’s disability too much.
However, during this period several things occurred.
The first was that one of our Lumis folk, dear friend Ingrid decided I needed looking after and so she arranged to send out to the Lumis folk generally, an invitation for them to contribute to a fund to send me off on a Scalar wave treatment. I knew nothing of this treatment but apparently it was supposed to alter the inner workings of the body in a positive manner…so I said ok, feeling very strange about the prospect of this treatment where I would spend twelve hours overnight in a room being blasted by I knew not what…but also about my friends from the group actually paying for me to do this. Occasionally people have said they would send me money, just because of what I do and ordinarily I accepted but sent the money on to other friends who I felt were more in need of it than I….but to accept such a large sum, and for a one night stay with this machine which really was very expensive, felt extremely odd to me.
I decided all I could do was accept what was happening and let the Universe do what It willed.
Unfortunately, the experience of sleeping with the machine felt really quite unpleasant and so far (over a month later) I have felt no benefit from it, which is a shame and apparently such a waste of the beautiful generosity of those that gave…although their generosity touched me very deeply.
Another strangeness is the creeping feeling of becoming more and more disabled and having this reflected in my life generally. I have felt more and more unable to act upon the things I imagine I can easily do.
For instance I really want to fix up my ship. For three years now I have felt really unwell and one aspect is the fatigue that descends on me extremely rapidly as soon as I start to do anything. Doing even the simplest job can take ages and the interior of my ship just looks like a building site, which actually is very distressing… So I start work and then collapse in a heap and have to rest after just an hour or so…and this is, as I say, reflected in everything that I attempt.
I also have some really quite unpleasant situations going on with my family members that have arisen over this period, all about money and a couple of situations where money is being denied me in various ways…all of which from time to time is very distressing. Obviously the Universe was aware and the money folk gifted me had a purpose! However, with the sudden onset of money problems when even quite recently I felt reasonably secure, combined with the lack of motivation and the lack of mobility generally…I really have started to feel very sad and surrounded by problems I cannot solve. In fact this evening, just one day after the solstice zoom that we did, I feel like I just want to curl up and disappear. This is a situation that has arisen after many, many months of struggle and it’s true, the whips and scorpions have been right on my tail all this time and have finally overwhelmed me….and so how do I resolve this? Find my way through this?
The Solstice zoom went well, according to the folk that came, though I was completely disorganised during it and felt almost like a fraudster as I had no clue what I was to do at the start, and I forgot/lost my invocation notes….
…and all I could do was attempt to stay still and listen for inner guidance as to what was needed be said. That guidance arose in simple fashion and, with a little help from Heather Ensworth that I listened to a day or so ago, we turned to the Light and then to the darkness with the question….how do we hold these two states within us as they do both belong to us? This provoked an interesting and very open conversation at the end..which was cheering…and I suspect what I take from this question is reflected in my current situation.
I draw others to the Light and am likewise drawn because I do this….but my life, my lived experience at the moment is very dark and seemingly there is little I can do to alter it.
However…just this evening, inspired by a rather silly film on Netflix, I decided I really had to do what I really have to do and address this situation to a higher being/beings.
Finally I have been brought again to the state of letting go of the wreck of my old life…to a state of “Sitting in the garden amidst flames”, where one rests right in the centre of one’s pain and anguish and darkness and accepts it, just as it is….and also really for the first time ever, despite the obvious presence that has been evident in our work, I have had to address myself to the Arising Christ and the counterpart Divine Feminine. I sat with them and my disintegrating life for quite some time…and as we speak I know there is more burning away to be done. But this is a start….and I know the timing is not by chance and the fragility I feel is not just more of the trail of disaster that in a gloomy light one might say has followed me for all my years.
It has meaning and one day soon I trust I will pop out of the other side of it feeling new and fresh and alive again to our new earth.
…and yes, just on Christmas day morning I sat in meditation and again addressed myself to the being of the Divine masculine/arising Christ….and all of a sudden moved directly in to the fullness of that presence. I doubt any explanation of that state can be described here, but in short I felt completely connected and healing for all aspects of my being poured in to me. Immediately after this I happened to open a Youtube link that Megan had previously sent me and this was the complete reading of ‘A course in Miracles’, a book I’d heard of maybe twelve years ago but had never really connected with. Listening to the clipped American voice that introduced the content of the book described pretty perfectly the state that I had just experienced. It was riveting.
Later experiences of addressing these high beings found me deciding that we should introduce this possible experience directly in to the zoom work…and as a part of this I tried addressing myself to the Divine feminine, and whilst it was possible to approach to a certain extent that feminine energy, I wasn’t able to ‘enter in’ as I had so smoothly with the Divine masculine and I suspect that this should be done by a woman in the zooms as a kind of initiation for the ladies group (who far outnumber the men). I am putting this in hand and have invited someone that my intuition suggested to take that part.
This period, building up to entering in to the being of the Divine masculine started really quite some time ago…many months actually, and one by one, all the pieces were put in place, or one could say my decisions brought me to this place of feeling completely disabled, without motivation (except for the group work), surrounded by financial problems that were seemingly unsolvable and devoid of the necessary energy to find a way through, and eventually this pushed me to the point of “having” to ask/address my situation to the High being. Almost instantly this was done there came relief. Some healing for my body, a release of the concerns so much around the financial and a feeling of strength and ‘uprightness that I hadn’t felt for a long while. This was reflected in some reading I did about the meaning of “The Grail” in a book I had been lent called “The Grail, The Lies, The Truth, The Answer” by Tanishka. It utterly fitted with my situation and is a book of many truths and to hold to the possibility that I am nearing the meaning of the Grail gives me great hope and strength.
I am fortunate though, that through all these trials I have held the knowing that this was a phase, an important one, and that it would not last but would test me… as it has. I’m grateful that it didn’t end with me kicking and screaming on the floor but have instead been able apparently to arise and grasp what was on offer.
I very much hope that it’s possible to bring this possibility to those in the Lumis group, and even if they aren’t able to ‘enter in’, at least they will have heard of the possibility.