Chapter 16

Chapter 16

….So that was then and this is now, and my intuition that I
was to bring the groups ‘on’ to a meeting with the Divine
beings proved correct. I felt there was some reluctance
somehow…or an edginess around this experience, but we
did our best and I have to constantly remind myself that
not everyone signed up for this sort of thing…and that has
rather sadly been shown to be the case by quite a few of
the folk leaving. However, those that stayed with me do
really seem to have taken to the new work with alacrity.
It’s also very true that the folk have arrived here from all
sorts of different life experiences and so obviously at
different levels of understanding and acceptance of this
very specialised work. After all….I am somewhat used to
the concept of ‘being drawn close’ by my many years
experiences up at the retreat school in Scotland, where
coming close to God, actually becoming ‘none other than
God’ was right at the top of the agenda. (Forgive me, but
to explain this simple statement would take forever and
even then it’s such a highly personal thing very difficult to
describe. After all, many minds greater than mine have
spent their entire lives living and describing this complex
state of affairs…)
On the other hand though, it appears now, some months on
from that tentative start that with our very simple
meditation and with the chakra illumination/enlargement,
that we are definitely finding our way, which is both
simple and effective. As the meditations have continued,
we were drawn to go through a purification process…or
facing the Light and rather magically there really has been
a strong sense of the Light arising within us very easily
and smoothly. Pretty much everyone remarks upon this,
when they are able to speak after the sessions! Long
silences are quite the norm for the sessions once we finish.
During this period there has been an extraordinary
turnaround for me personally, which seems to have started
right back on Christmas day. I had someone do some
shamanic healing for me in early January and this led very
quickly on to a sense of having suddenly turned a corner
with my financial affairs such that I was able to see more
clearly that I have to get a grip and should not let things
slide as I have done. This effect has increased and very
soon I was able to agree with myself that there was
absolutely no point continuing with my horrible situation
with my family and so I was able to make an appraisal of
the situation…and then drop it entirely…(or almost entirely.
I occasionally get flash backs of anger or similar arising
but it’s now easy to accept that that is inappropriate and
drags me down and I can now firmly close that door on
those thoughts.) And then suddenly some rather
miraculous things have started to occur. I got back to
Belgium and moved in to my ship again, finding it rather
cold and damp…and suddenly found someone who was
quite skilled at redecoration, and he started work on the
inside saloon area. This followed on swiftly by a meeting
with a very charming lady who works at the health
insurance office and who has explained the complexity of
the Belgian health insurance system and who has actually
sat and listened to my difficulties with it and has found
solutions and may even be able to find a way to reimburse
much of the large sum of money I have spent on doctors
fees and hospital stays…and I can tell you, this has really
perked me up as not one single person has previously been
able to explain this to me.
…and then!!! I was alerted to a situation by a new
Belgian friend, that I might be liable to pay a yearly land
tax on the little plot I bought a couple of years ago….so I
went to the notaire that had arranged the sale, to be told
that actually I hadn’t yet bought the land and they were
waiting on me to sign the contract…something I was sure I
had done…but apparently not!!!! …and this may mean
that I can actually not after all buy that land…and get my
money back…which would be fabulous as I cannot use the
land for anything and have been completely at a loss as to
what to do with it. Other situations too seem to have
righted themselves and although my actual health situation
hasn’t improved, I really feel that, if I am careful…listen to
the whispering of my intuition and spend wisely, then I can
most likely remain living on my ship, get the decorator
chap to do the work still outstanding both inside and
outside AND go off to the Netherlands and get the ship
certification done that is required before June…and this is
quite a relief to me as I had no hope of this occurring as it
needs to even just a few short weeks ago.
I trust you won’t mind this little insight in to my
difficulties….but in a subtle way it is inextricably linked to
the Lumis work and how it is presented by me as I do feel
we all will be going through difficult situations…and it
may be encouraging or of some use to hear of my struggles
and to hear how they are solved…mostly by my waiting for
the right time and asking for help at the right time…though
I will admit, things got pretty dark in the run up to
Christmas.
Yes, Christmas was a very dark time of feeling almost
completely overwhelmed…but I’m happy to say that this
has completely changed now, just a few months later.
Indeed I have had four more healings from my new friend
Susan and we have actually come to some arrangement
that she would pass on to me some of her knowledge and
understanding of her healing work and her connection with
‘Allies’ who assist her.
The changes this connection have brought have been really
wonderful. I now have a strong sense of direction for my
personal life, with quite a long term vision going on for
what I want to be doing, all the way in to next year…and
that’s extraordinary as I never plan very far ahead at all.
Amazingly, for the very first time after the last healing,
which was specifically aimed at my lower back where the
inflamed nerves are being squashed and which gives me
great pain and stops me walking for more that just a
hundred meters or so…I actually feel like I am getting
better!! This is amazing as I have tried all kinds of
healing modalities and the only time during this nearly
four years of difficulty that I felt affected by anything at
all, was when I rested in the Dolmen in Portugal for a
couple of hours. Further healings will come so I’m
anticipating major change. I welcome it very much. It
has been a long and difficult journey thus far. On the
other hand it has brought me a different life entirely, as you
may have read….and I welcome that too.
It is regularly said of Shaman that they have a period in the
evolution of the work that the body becomes dismembered
and distributed around about…and it is their task to come
back to life, find their various body parts and reassemble
them.
That very much fits how I feel about this…though I didn’t
knowingly sign up for the work or for being any kind of
shaman….or did I?
So, the work continued…
Unfortunately, during the period of January through to
very early may and my last healing from Susan, my
memory suffered a lamentable descent in to what
genuinely felt like althzeimers. A horrid and shocking
state of affairs when I could barely remember my own
name, let alone anyone else’s… It was very
worrying…yet, after the healing suddenly it all came back
again. A real relief.
As I said, ‘unfortunately’….I can hardly recall anything of
the work we did during this period.
I recall working with the group on some specific locations.
Verdun was especially important, as was a revisit to
Cern..and I recall Jerusalem, Gaza and Iran….they being
the most obvious hot spots around the world. I recall also
that we were now working entirely with Light and not
connecting with Darkness on any level. Around this time
too I was coming to terms with the fact, as highlighted by
Ephraim) that the Darkness has it’s place here on earth and
that there should be a balance. He stated the case that
there should be a balance between Light and Dark…but
that this had become entirely overbalanced in favour of the
Dark….and it was our task to redress the balance.
We did much traveling up to the ‘Liminal space’ and then
there was the discovery of ‘The Middle ground’…and
working in these refined and sacred spaces regularly was a
period of practicing traveling, getting used to moving as an
energetic group…regularly connecting with the Luminous
beings/angelic ones…and meeting/dissolving in to the
Divine masculine and Divine feminine.
More recently we started to energetically ‘flow’ in to the
earth energy lines that crossed through our circle
Roisin…and this facilitated our ‘flowing through the lines
to the various locations of governance in China, Russia,
USA, UK and Europe.
Around this time I received a message from Ephraim about
my health situation, about which I was feeling pretty bleak.
He suggested to me that, due to my birth location, about
which I have written before right at the beginning of this
blog,….about the stressful conditions of my father’s
betrayal of my mother, the unhappy heavily pregnant girl
from down the road and the amazing connections between
myself being born on an earth energy line directly
connected to the site of the battle of Hastings and the soul
prison there and the Saxon soldier that came and touched
me right at my point of birth.
He said that this was all a very powerful influence upon
me and that I had to “let it go”.
Well this put me in to a state of mystification as to what it
was that I needed to let go….and how?
For a while I was completely bemused and mistook some
of what he said as being appropriate work for the Lumis
folk. We went off on a couple of journeys inviting the
dissolution of all the memories of wars and battles and
conflicts that he had said were held in the grid. As soon as
we started I felt this was somehow wrong…and asked later
of Megan a clarification.
Indeed, we were led astray by my enthusuasm…and what
was needed was an invitation for the Light to cover the
entire planet in a blanket of Light.
So, we did this.
…and that all worked pretty well.
We started without illuming our shakras to start out with as
I felt as we were all well practiced in ‘connection’, that we
could dive straight in to the work and go to the Liminal
space….gaze upon the planet and invite the blanket of
Light to cover the planet…invite in some angels to guard
the planet energetic entances and then gaze upon the planet
shining forth it’s Light and Love right out in to the
void…which is of course not a void but the fullness of All
that Is.
For Thursday and Friday evening groups it worked a
treat….and then, for the very first time in all these dozens
and dozens and dozens of zooms….Sunday evening I just
forgot that I was supposed to be doing another one.
…and actually I feel that another phase is completed.
It’s time to take another break. Have a rest from the work
and concentrate on what is to come with my work on my
ship. Getting her certified, which is quite a complex
matter as I need to get a very great deal organised and
organise people…and myself especially. This is a crane
out, inspection, welding of steel hull plating, repaint and
perhaps other work….all in the Netherlands so we have to
sail the ship there, something I haven’t done for nearly
four years since Covid struck, all that time ago. I need
time to concentrate on that.
One thing I haven’t mentioned was the journeying that I
did as a response to Ephraim’s message to me about my
health. He mentioned ‘letting go’.
So, after a conversation with Susan about how I might go
about finding out what I needed to do…I set out with
intention to find out.
In meditation I started at my birth…bringing to mind the
forces at play during that time. Then I was brought to
see the entrance to Battle Abbey. A huge fortified arch
with Portcullis and battlements. I entered in to the
structure, walking through the archway…in a suit of
armour….but not the armour of a soldier of Saxon times,
but the armour of a Middle ages jousting style knight.
I walked directly to the spot where King Harold had been
shot in the eye with an arrow and knelt down beside the
place…where I believe he died and was buried.
I saw an image of him spring up….looking like a king
might in the Bayeux tapestry or within an illuminated
manuscript of the period. Kind of like a 2D
version. …and then I found that I was offered the
crown…and the Sceptre and Orb which I reluctantly
received….promising as I did so that I would serve as best
I may…for the people…for the kingdom. I recall again
trying to rid myself of this blessed armour that I was still
clad in, but to no avail…and it felt like this was just the
way it was supposed to be. This was both status symbol
and protection.
Well, the next day I was both excited and yet also trying to
negate the reality of the experience of being offered and
receiving these instruments of kingship…and talked with
Megan and Susan about it all.
The next evening however, I again visited the abbey and
this time there was no mistaking the situation. Despite my
stripping off the armour in an attempt to hold to a less lofty
path…it was thrust upon me again and I had to accept that
this was my path…my responsibility and my life work.
I think of this still that these are merely images I was given
in vision…and not ‘real’. This experience was definitely in
the realm of vision which has a meaning that probably has
to be fulfilled…but I am not about to turn in to a KING!!!
But then what do I know?
Questions arise constantly for me about who I really
am…before I was encapsulated in this being of flesh and
bone….spaceman? Interstellar traveler? Saxon warrior?
What?
Or is this all just a cosmic joke?
The messages of Ephraim, and my engagement with them
have been a consolation to these concerns.
What does concern me is to bring the small band of
warriors that are the Lumis folk to a point where they too
might find their own paths…rather than follow one that in
part I am leading them on…however, as I write that, I truly
don’t know if that would be the correct thing to encourage.
I have a path of leadership….not so much fun if there is
no-one that wishes to be led!
I am happy enough to do what I can, but it’s very clear that
I have no idea from day to day in what direction we are
traveling….and yet, and yet…the work still gets done.
It’s a mystery!!

Addendum.

So….a week or so on and I have finally arrived at the shipyard with Vertrouwen, after a somewhat shambolic journey of five days which feels like it’s been weeks!  We started out having to reverse a couple of kilometres as there are few opportunities to turn around on the canal where I live.  That took hours and was astonishingly difficult..   Then a long descent from the top of the narrow system of canal and river…winding, winding, winding through really quite beautiful countryside.   This river ‘Dendre’ is the most technically difficult to travel through I have come across in all my years of navigation with barges.   Hugely difficult to negotiate with tight bends…a flowing river and lots of wind this year.   We crashed in to the bank and rocks many times and collected much of the bankside greenery along the way.  This was not a comfortable feeling at all.

Finally, finally we got down to the Scheldt river/estuary which at least is very wide…and tidally swift…and entirely lacks mooring spots for ships like mine. Then, following the Sat Nav we took a turn in to…The immense harbour system of Antwerp…which was embarrassing as we should have had a “number” obtained before entry and that caused a kerfuffle on the radio, but eventually we got sorted and were able to sail without issue through the vastness of the commercial harbour, with huge seagoing ships on either side.

Finally after a lot of work and many hours of sailing we arrived at our destination and for one final time in this journey were attacked by the wind and crashed heavily in to the harbour entrance and spun round helplessly a couple of times in very dangerous fashion before finally getting a rope on to a bollard and wrestling the ship in to a solid mooring spot.  Exhausting. Embarrassing. Disappointing. Unnerving. A relief.

However, during all of this journey I have had a few thoughts pass through about the meanings of my visions that arrived before our departure.

The meaning of becoming king.  The meaning of our journey together as the Lumisgroup and like that…and I feel to share what I can recall.

Everything is energy….and as this really is true, let’s look at this meaning in reflection upon the journey I am on and the journey of those of the Lumisfolk.

I am some kind of conglomeration of energy. 

 Of course it appears to me most of the time that I am a human form, walking around…flesh and bone with some kind of sentience…that appears to be quite unreliable a lot of the time.   Actually ‘I’ am an energy form….with or without boundaries I have yet to discover…but it’s sure I am larger and probably more influential than I ever thought possible before.   I happen to be leading a small group of other energy forms…The Lumisfolk.

I have a certain set of experiences that allow me to do this.   Years and years of meditation and inquisitiveness…and sitting about doing nothing…and this has apparently qualified me for this work.   This energy form that I am appears to draw in what it needs to do this work…as actually one guiding principal in this work is, that “I don’t know”, and this allows “space” for stuff to arise. The guidance which enables the work to guided….without ‘me’ getting in the way too much and leading us all astray.

Meeting the image of myself as ‘King’ was very important.  Not of course because I am a king in any exterior sense, but this is a meeting with the fullness of my self.  I am perhaps come to a place of kingship with or of myself.   I am now whom I should be…which is pretty great because for all of my previous life, I’ve been in bits!   ….and so this is how it feels to have been me.  I was born and raised in a certain set of circumstances that had meaning.  I lived a life, rather bemused mostly, but always holding to meditation and what one called the spiritual life, though in comparison to some I was very definitely rather relaxed about it…yet strangely on the case.

Eventually, when the time was right a series of apparently external events arrived and I was brought to die, briefly but unequivocally, and a lot of that previous life was swept away and I was born anew.   The life I now had was that of a helpless babe, then a youngster, a teenager and now I feel I am stepping in to maturity, which this blog has been a witness to, and perhaps is it’s reason for being written.  …and this is where the completion of being my own king arises. It’s an ongoing project of course and my understanding of the last four years may well change.   But now, so what?

Well…it’s a time to establish that which we are promised.   To fully become what ‘perhaps’ this energy form has turned up to become….and that is to lead others to that similar realisation and experience…of knowing their own energy forms, to realise their own kings and queens….which may release us all from the confines of our human forms and allow us to flow in to the living energy forms of our lives and the energy forms of our society of energy forms and the energy form of our planet and by extension our universe….and thus heal everything…as in energy, all that is required is ‘intention’…to bring about change….to bring about the life that we can realise.

And then is this the New Earth?   

Maybe, maybe not.

But it sounds like it’s got legs.

So…beyond everything…I pray that all who engage with this work will find their own Queen or King.    Use me for the time appropriate to breathe in what is arising in the way it arises for us in the Lumisgroup…and find their wings to fly….and then….

It has been a beautiful experience to serve and I am very grateful.

I look forward to more…once this ship journey is over and we can get back to ‘normal’!!!